Friday, July 25, 2008

And at tha trial I met Nic, someone who attended our church before. He's entering his third year in Law. What he told me about law was a little discouraging, but before he left he told me i could look him up whenever i needed help. I realised then that somehow, in the past months, God has placed so many ple in my path. People i know I can go to for help with regards to school. I thank God for that =)

And Li Wei rushed down all the way from ECP to have dinner with us. We laughed so hard when we recounted how our youth was spent in CO, how wei xiong used to kick us in the chair when we blew smth wrongly, and how we used to bully elvin to buy drinks up for us. Nothing beats sitting with old friends and reminiscing about the good old days.

The best lasagne i've tried so far. Julia stole a bite before i took this pic lol. I must bring elaine there some day! And my first OG outing with my VCF friends!!! Andrew (the name of my og) from two different angles haha-

We were there for three hours, but only played 2 games. And 'Uglyuglyugly' is a crazy and totally unglam game haha

Check out Xiong Kun's foldable bike!!

I must mention smth about this guy. He's a year 4 social work major and the VCF Camp Chair. I tell you, I've never seen someone as kind, loving yet at the same time as crazy as him. His sharings during the VCF camp were really inpsiring and thought-provoking. I've learnt loads from him. thanks xk!

Kah yoke! year 2 social work major too. A fantastic OGL, and one who is forever enthusiastic about everything =)

And our boardgames fever continued even during dinner! We played Citadels at The Soup Spoon haha. we were waiting to be thrown out but that didn't happen =)

And I brought the guys to watch the YWAM team do street evangelism but we only reached there in time to say goodbye. Sorry guys but there's still monday. The YWAM team will be doing a full-day street-e this monday, their last day in town. Do go down and learn a thing or two!!

And i can never go to City Hall without spotting someone i know. Saw Saffie at raffles city ytd. Long time no see my dear girl!! =)

Finally, I had a morning to myself yesterday, and i came across this section in a devotional- "Successful people are not necessarily more gifted, they're just more passionate. What do you pray sbout? Cry about? Dream about? What are you willing to risk everything for? That's the well from which you'll draw your strength and your strategies when you experience setbacks, when others disappoint you, and when the job feels too big and you feel too small."

That really set me thinking. What am I passionate about? Well, when I was young, I wanted to be a doctor. Then came a phase I believe most children go through- the apsiration to become a teacher. Now the above two occupations don't even interest me at all. Then came the dream of becoming a social worker. I'm passionate about helping others. I still hold on to this dream doing social work one day. But would I give up everything i.e.a good pay, prestige for this supposed passion? Apparently not.

Church-wise. When I became a youth, I served in the children's ministry. Those few years were years of growth. I was given many opportunites to learn and experience many things. From worship to games to pastoral teacher. I gained so much in those few years. But soon, I felt my time was up. My passion just died. I moved on to the Youth ministry. I think I've done everything one can think of. Yes even visualiser and ushering. And I rmb I was once inspired to learn the drums. And shawn patiently taught me for a while but look where i am now. haha still stuck at the basics. And guitar!! I've played for many years but my skills haven't improved one bit. Bar chords are still a no-no. I always joke that "I should just stick to singing". Well, I was passionate enough to take vocal lessons at SBC, but not passionate enough to keep practising. I think I've forgotton almost everything i've learnt.

I read and re-read that paragraph ytd. Seriously, I don't know what I'm passionate about. What is something I'm willing to risk everything for? I don't know. This reminds me of the verse that goes "Jesus, my passion in life is to know You. May all other goals bow down to this journey of loving you more." Perhaps our understanding of passion is flawed. It's not so much the temporal spurts of enthusiasm for something, but maybe it ought to be this steadily growing love for something deeper, something more eternal...

I don't have the answers. I was never meant to provide them. Isn't it strange how humans tend to keep searching but never to discover anything?

I shall end with a son by Britt Nicole, "Set The World On Fire". Maybe this will provide some insights.

I wanna set the world on fire
Until it's burning bright for You
It's everything that I desire
Can I be the one You use?
I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to

Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
There's nothing I can not do
Nothing I cannot do

I wanna feed the hungry children
And reach across the farthest land
And tell the broken there is healing
And mercy in the Father's hands

My hands my feet
My everything
My life, my love
Lord, use me
I wanna set the world on fire
Set the world on fire

Beautiful lyrics that I pray will be your heart's cry.